ahhhhhhhh!!! I TOTALLY SCREWED UP BIO PT!!! i forgot my script, then i somehow stumbled over my words, and i could feel my face turning SUPER hot!!! damn!!! ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!! i dunno whATS WRONG WITH ME TODay!!! bhuvan said i was okay. but then, she can't say i SUCKED right? ahhhhh! oh shit!!!!! ahhhhh!!!!!!
anyway, i found this forum website that allows ppl to commision art and ppl drawn it for them and EARN REAL MONEY!!! as in, these ppl are really professionals!!! and they want, like, an artist who can draw cartoons to illustrate a children's book! or somebody who can draw a border for 250 dollars each!!! and thats in freaking U.S dollars!!! or Australian!!! and they want ppl who can help in comics or some storyboard artist who can draw the rough sketch of the script for a movie!!! OMGosh!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhh!!!!!!
and why are there so many ants on my table AGAIN???!!! i guess they're looking for the icecream that i ate earlier. STUPID ANTS. ahh, i thin they found the paper cone. DIE ANTS!!! ahhhhhhh!!!
There's something REALLYREALLY wrong with my stomach. reallyreallyreally wrong. i've been eating junk food/ nothing for the past 4 days? no breakfast, recess and lunch. its VERY freaky. and i don't feel hungry one bit. ah freak. urban hike day: 2 packets of gummy bears, 1 bottle of ice peach tea, small slice of fish, 2 tablespoons of rice. thursday: 2 chicken pies(lunch and dinner) and a bit of rice with veg. its quite weird. okay, its VERY weird. the only problem is that i feel SUPERLY tired in class, like that day of the eng and geog presentation, i was like sleeping while my group was presenting. OH SHIT. theres smth wrong with me!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! i have a feeling that i can don't eat for 2 days without feeling hungry at all. maybe i should try! it would be quite cool:D but then my brain would shrink, and that wouldn't be too nice:(
where in the world is outram???is it in australia? okay, i know its in Singapore, but where?????? i thought i t was pronounced out-ram. but the actual pronounciation is ao-trium. or smth like that. and i thought clarke quay was clarke KUEH. hahaha:D OMGosh, i feel so much better after ranting about that malu incident. yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! from now on, this blog shall become a place for rants and rants and more rants:D yay me!
Ah SHIT.
okay, since this blog is closed and stuff, i can rant in it anytime i want.
SHITSHITSHIT.
malu-ating!!! damn it!!! dieDIEDIE!
During learning journey week, we watched this movie thing and i was wearing this STUPID plaster on my finger and it was FREAKING dark and halfway through the F***ing movie, i put my hand(actually the finger with the plaster on it) on the seat rest AND i touched something soft. So, being the STUPID BLUR FOOL that i am, i was like, wah, the seat cloth is so SOFT! so cool! like velvet or wtv SHIT. so i was like touching it with my finger and poking it and whatever . then i touched it with my non-plastered finger and it was rough. so i was like, eh, so FREAKING WEIRD. then i touched it with my non-plastered finger again and this time i realized it was SOMEBODY'S FREAKING HAND. and i looked down, and yupp, it was xiaotung's hand! and i was like SHITSHITSHIT. OMGOSH. and i was like red and thinking what to do and it was to FUC*ing LATE to apologize and explain and BLAH. OH MY GOD.(this is not using the lord's name in vain coz its really serious and HORRIBLE) and ever FREAKIN' since, i've been like avoiding huitung and stuff. OMG.OMG.OMG. that's like the worse STUPID thing that has ever happened to me!!! WAHLAU!!!DAMNITDAMNIT. OHGOD,I'M RANTINGANDRANTING. SHIT LAH. damn. and i think hiu tung thinks i'm les. coz of that. WHICH IS HORRIBLE!!! and i'm not what. OHSHIT. OH GOD. i mean, damnit lah, okay? stupid DAMN MISUNDERSTANDING. ITS TOTALLY HORRIBLE. DAMNDAMNDAMN. SO MALU. and i can't tell her now coz it would be WEIRD AND TOTALLY RANDOM OR WHATEVER FUCKING DAMN SHIT. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN IT. SHITSHITSHIT. WAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! OH DAMN IT, ITS SO DAMN HORRIFYING! I WILL NEVER EVER WEAR A PLASTER ON MY FINGER AGAIN. NEVER EVER. i mean, if it happened to a guy, its not as bad!!!!!!! BUT I WAS SO DAMN BLUR! DAMN IT! OMG. I WILL FOREVER LIVE WITH THIS STUPID FUCKING, MORTIFYING INCIDENT ON MY MIND. DAMN IT.
I FEEL LIKE DYING. WAHLAU.
hello blog!!! i'm back again!!! yayy:D today was fun! i expected it to be boring and dreary etc.etc. but it rocked! okay, not rocked, but it was quite nice:] mr colman chua didn't come for SS again today! i've a feeling he's pRawning school AGAIN. orhor:D and then for assembly, i didn't bring my tie! and triyono was obviously like SHITSHIT, go and borrow! but i'm super lazy so i just zipped up my jacket REAL tight and tried to sneak past:D it worked! coz the prefect was TALKING ON THE PHONE. in the foyer, but still... hahahaha:D for assembly, the head prefect nominiees made speeches, blahblah, and some were interesting and others were boring, so i nearly slept, and some teacher came to wake arina up(she was sleeping too!!!) ohoohoh! and before that we were watching a chinese movie during HCL, lost in time! it was VERYVERY cliched. but nice and heart warming:D:D like: guy and girl, guy dies, girl sad, other guy steps in, and they fall in love, blah. and i was examining this piece of razor on the KSChee floor which was rusty, and i tried to imagine why anybody would actually cut their wrists and die with a razor blade. its disgusting! and bloody, and slow, and ew. obviously, i hate the sight of blood and cuts AND injections. oh and at the last block, Vaish gave EVERYBODY a personalized gift thing which was really sweet! except she spelt my name wrongly!!! attn ppl! my name is not: magdalene, madeline, magdeline or wtv. hahaha:D its MAGDELENE. and my formative maths test got 21! which was horrible:( i got everything correct ( okay one qn was 1/2 correct) except my workings and statements and all that stuff which i did not present properly:( bleah. and guides!we had to wear our uniform again because it wasn't worn properly the last time! but then, some ppl didn't wear white shoes and stuff so we're going to wear the uniform again next friday:/ and then we had outdoor cooking:D we got the SUNNY spot though0.o it was HOT. and probably coz of that, our fire was the hottest, biggest one:D:Dwe couldn't get too near the flames as they were BURNING. and it led me to think abt those ppl who were burnt alive in the past0.o eww. stupid religous yet evil church ppl of the past!!!at the end of guides, we went to the botanical garderns! funn!!! it got dark and scary and we sang songs and marched and ate burgers that chermaine's mum bought for us! and we took pictures! oh yes, we went there to find places suitable for stations for rural hike that the sec 3s were organizing:D:D and then i went home and ate 1/6 tub of cookie dough ice cream:D mmm...oh yah, the taxi driver thought i was a primary school kid!!! he must be REALLYREALLYBLUR!!! do i look tiny to you? childish? okay, maybe just a bit:D anyway, today's a no work day for me coz i came back late:D so i completed a commision for some guy named spencerB. its a guy drinking a drink and holding a balloon:D hmm...must start from the start:D okay, i opened this virtual store in a forum to draw stuff (forums.kingdomofloathing.com! under the artists section, maggie's avatar workshop!) obviously, the money earned is virtual money for the game kingdomofloathing that xiangting recommended to me:D i've earned like around a million+ now:D yay me:D:D except some ppl dont pay but i dont really care as i do the drawings for fun:D ME LIKE DRAWING!!!
wah, 11 already! time to go and sleep!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzz. yayyyyyyy. icecream!
BYEBYE blogg!
will blog again when i feel like blogging-ing. :]
awww...so sad '.'
hahahahahaha:D
yayyyyyyyy!!!!!! today's friday AND the last day of the term! i feel really happy:D actually, i feel kind of stressed too. i collated all that i have to do during the june hols and its quite a long list. i'm now busy stacking the hw into little piles and stuff. REALLY STRESSFUL. no homework rule my foot. haha:D yesterday, me and huanchin and hiu tung and jasmine and evelyn and cat and xiao fei and all the others went to watch mission impossible 3!!! really nice lah:D and as we were walking to the theater, we WALKED right past the one showing the Da Vinci Code!!! we could have seeked in and nobody would have noticed.hahahaha. what was really weird yesterday was that i did not eat anything. breakfast, recess, lunch and dinner. nothing at all. except for a sip of milo, a handful of chips and a milo freez for dinner. for your info, i did not even feel hungry!!! i keep on thinking of mr chua telling us about the babies in Africa whose enzymes all died and stuff. maybe i'm suffering from that!!! eee. i'm not trying to diet !!! just imagine if i became really skinny and anorexic... hahaha. and today, i didn't eat anything much too, except for 2 packets of milo, 7 biscuits, chips and 4 pieces of sushi. my mum actually cooked nasi lemak with honey chicken wings, but i got sort of sick when i smelt it and stuff>.< so i said we had a guides party which was true, but i didn't specify what food we ate( we just ate chips and cookies)0.0 really scary. and i still don't feel hungry. tried eating during recess but didn't feel like eating anything, so i just drank milo...i don't feel tired, lethargic, dizzy or anything. except when we did guides horseshoe and i got slightly dizzy and sleepy...but that's probably a fluke. never mind, shall try to stuff myself during the holiday:D
hmm. i have decided to un-hate misstan :D yayy. maybe that's just the way she is and she those really loud types. or maybe her boyfriend of a gazzilion years broke up with her or her pet fish died or her parents have moved to timbaktu. or something. or she could have just woken up on the wrong side of bed. yupyup. and maybe i'm too sensitive. hmmm...
goals:
forgive miss tan and stuff
stop feeling so embarassaed over crying ( i was so mortified that i didn't talk while eating lunch)
learn to bear it and grin it! there's this proverb but i've forgotten what it is. hmm...
re-revise chem.
and stop crying/ turning red too easily. (therefore i must go for plastic surgery to thicken my skin)
yupp:D
everything i say in this post is true so its not slander and therefore, i can't be sued(i hope)
i hate miss tan hai nee. really really hate her. she (according to me) is an insensitive, heartless, horrible woman. during pe today i told her that i had cramps and therefore, could not do PE. somehow, she started scolding me, saying that i didn't have a parents letter( how was my mum supposed to write a letter in the morning?!), could do PE AND did not bring my PE shirt. obviously i did not bring it!!! i was not doing PE! but noooo, she started yelling and shouting in my face, literally. It would have been okay if i had not tried to reply because my eyes started tearing up. eeeeeee. then i started feeling rather miserable and tears started rolling down my face and stuff and it was horrible. i didn't cry because i was scared of her or anything like that. it was because i felt it was so unfair and i started really hating her guts. so i sat down and was feeling more horrible and embarrased by the minute( for you see, the class was starting to come back from the jog). so i went to wash my face and stuff. i was really hyperventilating. so i stayed in the toilet for a while then i went back. and the HEARTLESS woman asked me to help with the equipment. i went into the room, and felt really really frustrated/irritated/ angry that i did a big baby sob and started cying again! eeeeee. laasya tried to comfort me but miss tan said 'back to your work' or smth, like nothing had gone wrong! so i went to the toilet again and started hyperventilating again,except worse. i really couldn't breathe properly and i felt really giddy. if i had died there and then, THAT woman would have to live with the guilt for the rest of her life and i would float around and make 'woooooooo' sounds. ha. i stayed in there for quite long to try to calm down my breathing. it didn't work. then i got afraid that i would die there and rot and nobody would find me until a week later and stuff, i went to the canteen then decided to go to the volleyball place. so i sat there and started to, for some reason, cry yet again. i hate HER. hateherhateherhateher. this is the first time i mean it when i say 'go and die'. really. after a long while, i started to calm down and started to work on the t-shirt design thing. but it was quite hard to draw with a runny nose and teary eyes and weak hands. I HATE HER. she totally ruined my morning. and like everybody didn't know why i was cying so they would have probably thought i was either a) babyish, b) attention-seeking or c) ultra-sensitive. i'm not any one of those because i have not cried since primary one. people are supposed to mature and stuff as they get older but i think i'm de-maturing. or maybe its just that evil woman. you would think she picked on me on purpose. oh yes, in cow and chicken(a show on cartoon network), hiney means butt. (this is not slander, i'm just stating facts.ha.) the good thing was that i passed chinese! i was expecting to fail and start crying all over again. thank goodness i didn't.
goals:
continue hating HER. without hyperventilating.
continue passing chinese with good grades
continue thinking of a t-shirt design.
i just realised smth! the comic strip calvin and hobbes is not calvin and HOBBIES. hahaha. i have always thought it was hobbies ever since i heard about it. heehee:D and i thought that chem eoi was tmmr! until su chin and evelyn said it was on tues! haha:D i finished studying on sat...so that means i will have to re-revise it again0.0 eeeee. and we have photo-taking tmmr! i have to wear guides uniform AND tie plaits again. but i'm not going to tie ponytails to school, super MALU!!! haha. my plaits are going to be super messy. somehow, my hair always gets messy. maybe the cations and anions of my hair are attracted to the free-moving ions in the atmosphere... maybe i should shave all my hair off. hmmm... i was rather sick in the morning, sneezing and coughing and blowing my nose. i tried taking a vitamin C...it didn't work, but it was really sweet and orangey and nice:D anyway, i haven't even started reading any books i bought yet. that's a record for me! 1 whole month without reading a single book! ( textbooks not included) hmmm...for dinner today, my mum cooked pasta and roast chicken again, but this time with pasta sauce with cucumbers and red peppers! yumyum. by the time i finished i was so STUFFED. then, i lay on the floor and started to laugh for no reason at all. i tried to get up but couldn't. my brother tried pulling me up and i hit my head on the floor and continued laughing. by this time my stomach was starting to hurt from all the laughter and stuff. somehow, i managed to sit up but my brother poked me in the stomach and i screamed and fell over again. hahahaha. i'm not joking. my dad was really amused at all this. i must have been allergic to the pasta sauce or maybe it contained laughing gas. i tried to stand up but my leg muscles weren't working. i think i was to lazy from all the chicken to use them:D this continued for about 10 mins before i stopped laughing and stood up:) oh yes. i was thinking about what i want to be when i grow up when i realised that i have NO IDEA. when i was younger, wanted to be: a doctor, a dentist, a scientist, a biologist, a fashion designer and a travel journalist. but i discovered that: the medical idusty's market is too saturated(the ones that earn big bucks, that is), i hate cutting up dead bodies, injuctions etc, scientists don't earn much and, even though i can design, i have NO IDEA how to sew(like those ppl on project runway).
aspirations:
designer
- have to learn to sew first.hee.
-and i have to join a fashion magazine and catch the eye of the main designer/editor who's a gay guy and he will take me under his wing and i could start my own design line and stuff.
artist
-i went to these art exibitions and the paintings were selling for like 50000 each.(okay, the artists were really old/dead)
biologist working for greenpeace
-save the seals! marine life!
buisness woman(except i have no idea how to start a buisness company thingy.)
- i shall start an investment company and help ppl invest money! or do some logistics thing. or ship thing. or be like that guy on CNBC and sell fish fillets(and earn 160million in profits per year.ooh) or i could be a supplier or distributor or i could always drop out of school now and invent something and become the richest woman in the world. heehee.
doctor
-you get alot of free stuff like pens and cups and chocolates and wine and flowers. and you get invited to all these talks in hotels and get buffet lunches.
-and you get to know all these people and they invite you for parties and stuff.
-oh yes, you get to help ppl too!
-bad points: blood, gore, listening to ppl tell you their problems all day long, probing ppl's nether regions etc.
okay, i feel stressed thinking about my future. shall stop now and watch tv.
