Wednesday, May 31, 2006

BYEBYE blogg!
will blog again when i feel like blogging-ing. :]
awww...so sad '.'
hahahahahaha:D

Friday, May 26, 2006

yayyyyyyyy!!!!!! today's friday AND the last day of the term! i feel really happy:D actually, i feel kind of stressed too. i collated all that i have to do during the june hols and its quite a long list. i'm now busy stacking the hw into little piles and stuff. REALLY STRESSFUL. no homework rule my foot. haha:D yesterday, me and huanchin and hiu tung and jasmine and evelyn and cat and xiao fei and all the others went to watch mission impossible 3!!! really nice lah:D and as we were walking to the theater, we WALKED right past the one showing the Da Vinci Code!!! we could have seeked in and nobody would have noticed.hahahaha. what was really weird yesterday was that i did not eat anything. breakfast, recess, lunch and dinner. nothing at all. except for a sip of milo, a handful of chips and a milo freez for dinner. for your info, i did not even feel hungry!!! i keep on thinking of mr chua telling us about the babies in Africa whose enzymes all died and stuff. maybe i'm suffering from that!!! eee. i'm not trying to diet !!! just imagine if i became really skinny and anorexic... hahaha. and today, i didn't eat anything much too, except for 2 packets of milo, 7 biscuits, chips and 4 pieces of sushi. my mum actually cooked nasi lemak with honey chicken wings, but i got sort of sick when i smelt it and stuff>.< so i said we had a guides party which was true, but i didn't specify what food we ate( we just ate chips and cookies)0.0 really scary. and i still don't feel hungry. tried eating during recess but didn't feel like eating anything, so i just drank milo...i don't feel tired, lethargic, dizzy or anything. except when we did guides horseshoe and i got slightly dizzy and sleepy...but that's probably a fluke. never mind, shall try to stuff myself during the holiday:D

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

hmm. i have decided to un-hate misstan :D yayy. maybe that's just the way she is and she those really loud types. or maybe her boyfriend of a gazzilion years broke up with her or her pet fish died or her parents have moved to timbaktu. or something. or she could have just woken up on the wrong side of bed. yupyup. and maybe i'm too sensitive. hmmm...
goals:
forgive miss tan and stuff
stop feeling so embarassaed over crying ( i was so mortified that i didn't talk while eating lunch)
learn to bear it and grin it! there's this proverb but i've forgotten what it is. hmm...
re-revise chem.
and stop crying/ turning red too easily. (therefore i must go for plastic surgery to thicken my skin)

yupp:D

everything i say in this post is true so its not slander and therefore, i can't be sued(i hope)
i hate miss tan hai nee. really really hate her. she (according to me) is an insensitive, heartless, horrible woman. during pe today i told her that i had cramps and therefore, could not do PE. somehow, she started scolding me, saying that i didn't have a parents letter( how was my mum supposed to write a letter in the morning?!), could do PE AND did not bring my PE shirt. obviously i did not bring it!!! i was not doing PE! but noooo, she started yelling and shouting in my face, literally. It would have been okay if i had not tried to reply because my eyes started tearing up. eeeeeee. then i started feeling rather miserable and tears started rolling down my face and stuff and it was horrible. i didn't cry because i was scared of her or anything like that. it was because i felt it was so unfair and i started really hating her guts. so i sat down and was feeling more horrible and embarrased by the minute( for you see, the class was starting to come back from the jog). so i went to wash my face and stuff. i was really hyperventilating. so i stayed in the toilet for a while then i went back. and the HEARTLESS woman asked me to help with the equipment. i went into the room, and felt really really frustrated/irritated/ angry that i did a big baby sob and started cying again! eeeeee. laasya tried to comfort me but miss tan said 'back to your work' or smth, like nothing had gone wrong! so i went to the toilet again and started hyperventilating again,except worse. i really couldn't breathe properly and i felt really giddy. if i had died there and then, THAT woman would have to live with the guilt for the rest of her life and i would float around and make 'woooooooo' sounds. ha. i stayed in there for quite long to try to calm down my breathing. it didn't work. then i got afraid that i would die there and rot and nobody would find me until a week later and stuff, i went to the canteen then decided to go to the volleyball place. so i sat there and started to, for some reason, cry yet again. i hate HER. hateherhateherhateher. this is the first time i mean it when i say 'go and die'. really. after a long while, i started to calm down and started to work on the t-shirt design thing. but it was quite hard to draw with a runny nose and teary eyes and weak hands. I HATE HER. she totally ruined my morning. and like everybody didn't know why i was cying so they would have probably thought i was either a) babyish, b) attention-seeking or c) ultra-sensitive. i'm not any one of those because i have not cried since primary one. people are supposed to mature and stuff as they get older but i think i'm de-maturing. or maybe its just that evil woman. you would think she picked on me on purpose. oh yes, in cow and chicken(a show on cartoon network), hiney means butt. (this is not slander, i'm just stating facts.ha.) the good thing was that i passed chinese! i was expecting to fail and start crying all over again. thank goodness i didn't.

goals:
continue hating HER. without hyperventilating.
continue passing chinese with good grades
continue thinking of a t-shirt design.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

i just realised smth! the comic strip calvin and hobbes is not calvin and HOBBIES. hahaha. i have always thought it was hobbies ever since i heard about it. heehee:D and i thought that chem eoi was tmmr! until su chin and evelyn said it was on tues! haha:D i finished studying on sat...so that means i will have to re-revise it again0.0 eeeee. and we have photo-taking tmmr! i have to wear guides uniform AND tie plaits again. but i'm not going to tie ponytails to school, super MALU!!! haha. my plaits are going to be super messy. somehow, my hair always gets messy. maybe the cations and anions of my hair are attracted to the free-moving ions in the atmosphere... maybe i should shave all my hair off. hmmm... i was rather sick in the morning, sneezing and coughing and blowing my nose. i tried taking a vitamin C...it didn't work, but it was really sweet and orangey and nice:D anyway, i haven't even started reading any books i bought yet. that's a record for me! 1 whole month without reading a single book! ( textbooks not included) hmmm...for dinner today, my mum cooked pasta and roast chicken again, but this time with pasta sauce with cucumbers and red peppers! yumyum. by the time i finished i was so STUFFED. then, i lay on the floor and started to laugh for no reason at all. i tried to get up but couldn't. my brother tried pulling me up and i hit my head on the floor and continued laughing. by this time my stomach was starting to hurt from all the laughter and stuff. somehow, i managed to sit up but my brother poked me in the stomach and i screamed and fell over again. hahahaha. i'm not joking. my dad was really amused at all this. i must have been allergic to the pasta sauce or maybe it contained laughing gas. i tried to stand up but my leg muscles weren't working. i think i was to lazy from all the chicken to use them:D this continued for about 10 mins before i stopped laughing and stood up:) oh yes. i was thinking about what i want to be when i grow up when i realised that i have NO IDEA. when i was younger, wanted to be: a doctor, a dentist, a scientist, a biologist, a fashion designer and a travel journalist. but i discovered that: the medical idusty's market is too saturated(the ones that earn big bucks, that is), i hate cutting up dead bodies, injuctions etc, scientists don't earn much and, even though i can design, i have NO IDEA how to sew(like those ppl on project runway).

aspirations:
designer
- have to learn to sew first.hee.
-and i have to join a fashion magazine and catch the eye of the main designer/editor who's a gay guy and he will take me under his wing and i could start my own design line and stuff.
artist
-i went to these art exibitions and the paintings were selling for like 50000 each.(okay, the artists were really old/dead)
biologist working for greenpeace
-save the seals! marine life!
buisness woman(except i have no idea how to start a buisness company thingy.)
- i shall start an investment company and help ppl invest money! or do some logistics thing. or ship thing. or be like that guy on CNBC and sell fish fillets(and earn 160million in profits per year.ooh) or i could be a supplier or distributor or i could always drop out of school now and invent something and become the richest woman in the world. heehee.
doctor
-you get alot of free stuff like pens and cups and chocolates and wine and flowers. and you get invited to all these talks in hotels and get buffet lunches.
-and you get to know all these people and they invite you for parties and stuff.
-oh yes, you get to help ppl too!
-bad points: blood, gore, listening to ppl tell you their problems all day long, probing ppl's nether regions etc.

okay, i feel stressed thinking about my future. shall stop now and watch tv.

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Beatrice ist en stockdumm idiotisch die
it means: beatrice is an idiotic stupid cow!
hahaha. serves her right for saying i'm a cow in german. will try to say it to her on monday. heeheehee. and i will try to learn how to say it in another language too. ha.
ohno. but later wait she pound me into pieces then how? beatrice's really scary.ahhhhh!
i don't care.haha.
Beatrice ist en stockdumm idiotisch die.
:D

Friday, May 19, 2006

ooh, Chem. SPA was today!!! it was okay because bio SPA was way scarier...all we needed to do for chem. pract was just to wash the equipment and dump all the Ps into the Q. heehee:D but the teacher was really scary!!! i didn't know what endpoint looked like (we only did till orange for practice) so i think i told her the orange one was endpoint and she scanned her paper and marked something that looked like a cross!!! ahhhhhh! and my pump didn't work too. eek. the calculations were easy though. ohno. maybe i THOUGHT they were easy but actually they were difficult and required some strange formula i've never heard of before? ahhhhhhhh!!! oh yes. we got back our maths papers today! the level average was 22 and our class' was 28! AND we were the only class without failures!!!301 rocks!!!!yayyy. but i felt kind of dissapointed because my mark was the class average mark:( and i copied the first question wrongly:(( i knew how to do it okay? and i made a careless mistake for the graph and i got minus 1 for presentation:(( i could have gotten higher marks! d*mn it! ficken!(that's the first german word i learnt from wei fen:D it means ummm...well...ask wei fen lah. hahaha:D) miss neo wrote 'great improvement!' on the paper and that's rather strange because i DEPROVED by 7 marks in terms of percentage. eeeeee. but the geniuses(the 3 in a row and all the others:D haha) didn't get full marks too! it proves that this paper is skewed and that i'm a genius! yayyy. okay, aybe that inference is a bit far-fetched. heehee:D oh! i think this is the first post in this blog where i have typed in swear words:) hahaha.
note to self:
get back at gab for pulling my shoelace(and i thought it was laasya so i untied hers.hahaha:D)
stop typing swear words. we must be civillized young ladies blahblahblah.
and try washing my hair only once a week(just joking:D) mrs tan mentioned during assembly that some girl's hair stank or smth. hahahaha. how can hair stink??? heeheeheehaha.
and i MUST get really SUPER good marks for next term's math test or i will be veryvery x 10^1000 mad and pissed(oops) off.
hmm... i think i'm getting influenced by tyriono(or is it tryiono? oops. name too complicated:D)

goal:
learn to spell laasya's surname(surraktal? surakal?ehh.), triyono's first name(widynangsih? widdyangsih???) and all the other complicated names in class. oohhhhh.

I HATE STOMACH ACHES! had to skip guides today because of that. at least we're not doing anything impt:D (i hope)

yayy:D

Thursday, May 18, 2006

hmmm. i really don't know what to study for chem EOI. i ran through the titration steps, the titration worksheets and did the questions and stuff. the lack of work to do makes me stressed. its quite strange... maybe i have some type of weird disorder. more work=no stress, no work=stress!!!ahhhhhhhh!
oh yes somemore embarassingevents:
-last year, when i was in the school bus/van i fell asleep and fell into a girl's lap! and then, another time, i woke up and i was like 'where's my specs, wheres my specs?' and the girl next to me pointed at my pinafore and i remembered that i had put my specs there! ahhhh!
- once, i ate some chocolatey thing and bits of it got stuck in my teeth and i didn't know until after my piano lesson! no wonder the teacher was looking stangely at my teeth!
- in primary school i had a crush on a boy who took the same school bus as me so when he talked to me i would always turn red(stupid thin skin of mine) and he would ask me why i was so red and pinkish!!!eeeeeeeeee.

things i hate:
turning red easily.
sweating easily.
embarrasing events.
eek.

and i really think i should get a blog skin! and a tagboard! but too lazy lah. heeheehaha.
am i irritating? hmm... hope not! yay. i am now in the crapping stage. lalala. am i really irritating? a little irritating? super irritating? am i? am i? am i too quiet? obviously.
additional thing i hate:
being too quiet. and too nice.
but am i nice? maybe i'm evil and mean. or selfish. or proud and stuck-up. or too sweet that i stick to your teeth and make them rot. eek.
ooh. i think i'm doing a self-reflection. ahhhhh. and my hair's too messy. i really don't know why. hmm.
WHEN I GO TO JC, I'M GOING TO BECOME REALLY ENTHU AND OUTSPOKEN. and with less sweetener too. and i'm going to sneer at those boys who are shorter than me and laugh at them and stuff. muahahaha. and i'm going to sneek into the gyms and movie theathers and drink lots of beer(eeee.) and take drugs and get a tattoo and join a gang. muahahahahahahahaha. so there.
hee.

A Series of Embarassing Events

my life is basically chocked-full of embarassing events. its like a cake studded with a truckfull of rasins. and i hate rasins.
1) did i even spell embarassing correctly?
2) yesterday when i tied 2 ponytails to school for guides. and there was assembly. WITH THE WHOLE SCHOOL LOOKING AT MY HAIR. and anyway, the rubberbands broke and i got scolded for not plaiting my hair and then they scolded the rest for not giving me extra rubber bands('where's your batch spirit?) eeeeeeeeee.
3) When my nick was 'darn it all, i'm not going to study maths anymore.' and my maths tution teacher logged on and asked me why and i said nothing and logged off! he must have thought i was lazy or smth even though i had studied the whole day!!!
4) during learning journey week when we were watching the movie and i had a plaster on my finger so i couldn't feel a thing and when i touched the seat's arm i thought it was really nice and soft and so i poked it again and then put my hand on it and it turned out to be somebody's hand! i think it was hiu tung's or smth. i was really mortified and stuff. luckily it was not a guy's hand or it would have given him the wrong impression and stuff. yick.
5) during PE class when i hit the ball wrongly and miss tan was looking at me really scarily and i sort of did this grin and she started lecturing me and i grinned all the way( actually i was grimacing and i wanted to say go and die(not that i hate her) ) she must have thought i was vapid or like those brainless ppl mr chua told us about. eeek.
6) and on monday when i sms-ed my mum because we had to go for the english comre paper thing and i FORGOT TO TURN OFF MY PHONE. then, in the hall it started ringing and it was horrible and embarassing and maria AND elieen were right behind me.
7) oh, and during chinese class when i thought a festival was the mooncake festival and it was actually written there that it was smth else!
8) and i get red very easily. and sometimes for no reason at all, like today when i was talking to laasya and she said my face was red even though i didn't feel my cheeks turning warm. and i thought she was lying so i asked triyono and she agreed with laasya and i was so embarassed i turned redder.
and lots more. but i have to be hardworking and continue revising for Chem. SPA. ooo.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

today, i was irritated by mr colman chua. he expects us to know every single thing in the universe. he said something like: 'why don't you know the three idealologies?' and he walked around looking very offended for like 5 minutes! i wanted to say that because he didn't teach it to us(i looked through my notebook) and that it didn't really matter in the test!!! eeee. hmmm...is this called flaming? no right? phew.heh. anyway in class before the 2.4 km run, triyono and huanchin were CALCULATING the ideal speed to run for each round!!! it was really funny AND scary at the same time. they probably think, eat and sleep in maths. eeeee. haha. and my PE shirt i wore today had 2 holes in it!!! so embarrasing. 0.0 the run was PURE TORTURE. actually the first 3/4 was rather nice. i made a HUGE mistake of following andrea though. she was running REALLY REALLY FAST. so i fell behind and had a stitch. eeek. i got 14.33 minutes in the end. really lousy and stuff. but that's because i didn't practice. i tried once in a gym but got found out by the trainer. the age limit's 18, for goodness sake. i tried to look all adult-like by tying up my hair and looking tall. that went well while i was running. THEN, i tried using the weight-lifing equipment. and started GIGGLING(i couldn't lift it). bleah. so i guess the guy ran a check against my father's name and found out that his daughter was only 15. i hate that guy. he said that one 15 year old boy once sneaked in and tripped on the treadmill and cut his lip or some weird thing. idiotic boy! i'm not that careless what. eh. so i have not dared to sneak in since. heh. maybe i shall try during the june hols. and i WILL NOT giggle this time. muahahaha.

goals:
REVISE CHEMISTRY, PHYSICS and MATHS
social studies!
act like a mature adult: swear words and determined look on face. and wearing of trackpants to make me look tall and fit. heehee.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

eek! the tips of my fingers are peeling! i hate the sulphuric acid from chemistry!eee.haha:D today was my PFT test and i passed! i'm so happy! i thought i would die for IPU. heehee. i have to do my chemistry titration homework now. must stop blogging!

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

haha:Di was practising standing broad jumps just now in the dining room. i jumped, then lay down to measure(roughly) how far i'd jumped, when, suddenly, i felt something wet AND furry. just above my head was some grey, furball like thing. i was SO shocked that i really screamed and jumped up and stuff. it was, of course, frisky! haha. really funny:D i continued practicing, and did the shuttle run thing. i nearly bumped into frisky during the run though. :) and once he tried to chase me so i ran SUPER fast. hahaha. by that time i was really sweaty and panting and tired. so i went to practise on the piano. BIG MISTAKE. i totally DESTROYED the songs by playing them really funnily. the beat sort of followed my heartrate which was like bombombombom(really fast) and skittered over all the notes, playing them really lightly and quick so i couldn't do the bit in the exam piece which needed me to be really precise. and i couldn't play the second song because it was supposed to be slow and stuff. so i gave up and practiced Canon in D. the excercise must have done something to my hand coordination because i COULD NOT coordinate my right and left hands. hahaha:D anyway, by that time it was dinner which was cashew nut chicken and omelette and vegetables and lotus soup with peanuts. i piled half of my rice on my mum's plate when she wasn't looking :D although she, through her special mum sense, found out and said that i should eat more and that i was SKINNY. hahahahaha. yah right. then i made fun of my brother going to do exercises and my dad said: at least he's not some weakling who's SKINNY. i smiled and thanked him for the compliment(the skinny part, not the weakling part) if i'm skinny,half of the class must be anorexic. i think i'm rather fat! i was super plump in primary school and only slimmed down because i grew taller and stuff. hahaha. eeeeeeeeee. eek.
goal:
to become slimmer. the healthy way and not by starving myself to death and causing my brain(and other parts) to shrink. ew. shrinking brain! ahhhhhh! argh!

Bio SPA! really scary. i was like ahhhhhhhhh!!! whatwhat? through the first 10 minutes. And i couldn't really process what i was supposed to do, so i just started vomiting out all the infomation like a ROBOT. the procedures were written totally from MEMORY. yes. i sort of relaxed after a while and stuff though:D and at the end of the SPA, my hands were all slippery and soapy because of the NaOH which is an alkaline. i nearly spilt iodine all over the table as a result. haha:) then when i got back to class, i noticed that the tips of my fingers were shiny and some skin was PEELING. ew.urgh. thank goodness they did not give me non-diluted HCL for the test; i would have melted the whole school down. muahaha.( now that's an interesting thought...hmmm...). oh yes. after math, i was talking to Laasya when Elieen walked in and noticed my shoes which are illegal and stuff( hey, don't blame me, my school shoes were still wet). But she was really nice and didn't book me(or at least i think so). THANK YOU ELIEEN:D thats the bad thing about having prefects in class. You feel REALLY guilty when they find out you're breaking the school rules or smth. eeeeee! i shall strive towards obeying the school rules at all times. yes. anyway, i must go and practice standing broad jumps to prepare for PFT tomorrow. haha. i'm doing it with the sec twos! i had muscle aches that day so i couldn't do PFT with the other sec 3s :( ahhhhhh! i'm really worried about IPUs and standing broad jumps. i have NO arm muscles AT ALL. hope i will get a really nice teacher. like miss neo. yay! :D and standing broad jumps! i could do around 180+ cm last year but this year, i can't jump AT ALL. i swing and end up doing this weird hop-skip thing and jump only 20cm. eeeeeeee. its really strange because i can do it at home but not in school. maybe i'll improve dramatically during PFT. i hope... ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!! and shuttle run. we have not practiced it before this year! shall wear socks with lots of friction tomorrow. haha:D oh yes, last but DEFINTELY not least is the 2.4km run. no practice! ahhhhhh!!!
goals:
revise maths and chemistry and phyiscs.
standing broad jumps!
IPUs!